March 8, 2011
“I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”

The title is a quote from my dream man (if only he was still alive), Jack Kerouac. I sometimes find that this quote sums up my entire state of being most of the time. I get inspired about 100 times a day, and I let a handful of those inspirations consume me. Sometimes this is a wonderful thing, sometimes it only leads to confusion. Do you ever have those moments where you can’t explain the feeling in your heart? Now, I have a problem expressing those feelings, and writing helps, but sometimes it takes more to really be free- 

I have said time and time again that all I want in life is to be at peace. I have to tell myself to stop looking to the past or the future for this peace. And be in the present moment. This moment. No other. I have realized though that no matter how many times you tell yourself something, practicing it is a different story. 

I subscribe to elephant journal, a great source for inspiration on living a mindful life. I spend most mornings with a cup of coffee or chai and read some of my favorites, as well as other articles that peak my interest. I came across an article by Kim Roberts titled, Three Reasons Why I Am Not Married. It really spoke to me because I can relate to all three reasons, and although I am only an early twenty-something, this questions weighs on my mind. I have been in a relationship with a man I thought everything of, and then a wave of despair came crashing down and the debris is hard, almost too hard, to pick up. I am not sure I believe in the love my great-grandparents had anymore, but I want to. Yet, I can’t help but think we may only have a Mr. Right for this moment, not a Mr. Right for forever. And maybe that is okay? Is that a part of living in the present? I wrote in an earlier post, the nature of love, that I just don’t think love is valued anymore. This is circumstantial and of course doesn’t apply to some of those lucky ones. So, today while I was reading Robert’s blog, Diary of a Pilgrim, her post Beyond Hope and Fear resonated with me. 

I am content right now. At this very moment, and that is all I need. 

Namaste-

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July 29, 2010
"This is the situation of your head: I see cycle-handles and pedals and strange things that you have gathered from everywhere. Such a small head…and no space to live in! And that rubbish goes on moving in your head; your head goes on spinning and weaving - it keeps you occupied. Just think what kind of thoughts go on inside your mind. One day just sit, close your doors, and write down for half an hour whatsoever is passing in your mind, and you will understand what I mean and you will be surprised what goes on inside your mind. It remains in the background, it is constantly there, it surrounds you like a cloud. With this cloud you cannot know reality; you cannot attain to spiritual perception. This cloud has to be dropped. And it is just with your decision to drop it that it will disappear. You are clinging to it - the cloud is not interested in you, remember it."

— Osho 

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